Sad news

Friends,
For those of you who have not heard the news...it is official that we lost Baby Girl.  This news became final as of today, which is why I waited a bit to post anything.  After one of the longest weeks/weekends of our lives we talked to our social worker last Monday and settled on a plan.  We reactivated our profile, in an attempt to possibly be shown to other birth parents, with the understanding that we were still "on hold" for this specific opportunity until today.  The agency shared with us that they like for adoptive families to remain available for a week past the due date in case the birthmom comes back into communication.  Sadly, ours did not :(  We have asked the agency to let us know if they ever find out what happened, but we don't really anticipate ever having a clear answer.  There is really nothing else to describe the whole situation than to say it is all very strange and we will probably never fully understand what happened.  We spent the better part of last weekend crying and losing ourselves in movies.  This past week was easier than the week before.  We were no longer waiting through every minute of each day and felt good about the decision to reactivate and move on.  I think we are moving through some of the natural stages of grief and maybe at some point I will be able to process my thoughts to put together a post on what that looked like for us.  For now, we are so so so sad to have lost Baby Girl but we are excitedly praying for the next baby and birth parents that God will bring our way.  We are so thankful for the love and support of all of you through this hard time and hope we have better news to share soon.  
As always, thank you for joining us on this crazy journey and praying for each step of the way!