Mommy Freak Out

"Just stop being so CRAZY and obey me!"  Tears instantly started streaming down my oldest son's face as I literally yelled in his face.  And then tears instantly started streaming down my face.  We quickly looked at each other and he jumped into my arms for a big hug.  

This week has been ROUGH in our house!  An allergic reaction to food dye for our oldest and early terrible twos for our youngest have led to moment after moment of mommy (and daddy) frustration.   To the point that 2 nights ago I proclaimed, "We have got to do something different!  Our parenting is leading to this?!  We cannot do this anymore.  Changes must be made!"  

Mommy guilt is a real thing.  I know I'm not singing a new tune here, but it hit me in a new way this week.  It is times like this I really need to remember to preach the Gospel to myself.  My mothering is not faultless.  My kids are not perfect.  My house is a wreck (have you ever been to our house?!).  My marriage suffers.  Yet when God looks down at me, He doesn't see any of this.  He sees His perfect image reflected in me.  Wow.  When I really sit, think, and reflect on this it seems crazy.  My HOPE is in Christ and is not found in the craziness of my little world.  It's true, people!  Crazy.

Last night, I snapped this picture of the boys.  

They were so happy when I picked them up after school.  We came home and jumped on the trampoline together for an hour.  Jaxon said, "This is like my best dream come true.  I love our family so much."  It definitely doesn't erase the hard times, but it makes them a tiny bit easier.  That's it for the sappy, mommy-blog post.  Join me in praying that more mommies out there fight the guilt and embrace their hope in Christ.  Happy Thursday.